" Relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing had yet been done."
~C.S. Lewis

It seems to me there must be a way around this, that one can rely on God all the time, as though it were automatic, like breathing. Etty Hillesum spoke of it. Merton spoke of it, as did Thomas Kelly. But me, I have to remember every day what I am to do, like a toddler. And much of the day, wrapped up in the busyness, I forget to check in with God.

Some words of Thomas Kelly:

"But if we center down, as the old phrase goes, and live in that holy Silence which is dearer than life, and take our life program into the silent places of the heart, with complete openness, ready to do, ready to renounce according to His leading, then many of the things we are doing lose their vitality for us. I should like to testify to this, as a personal experience, graciously given. There is a reevaluation of much that we do or try to do, which is done for us, and we know what to do and what to let alone.

Let me talk very intimately and very earnestly with you about Him who is dearer than life. Do you really want to live your lives, every moment of your lives, in His Presence? Do you long for Him, crave Him? Do you love His Presence? Does every drop of blood in your body love Him? Does every breath you draw breathe a prayer, a praise to Him? Do you sing and dance within yourselves, as you glory in His love? Have you set yourselves to be His, and only His, walking every moment in holy obedience?"

~From A Testament of Devotion